June 20th, 2008

Well,
By now I'm sure you have all heard our news. Both good, and tragic in such a short time. This would explain why the blog was originally taken down. I decided that taking it down would not make the situation go away. Ignoring it won;t make it better, or "not actually happen." Perhaps this would actually make things seem a little better. I know we are not alone in neither the situation, nor in just simply from those showing us they care, and are here for us.

I am normally a rather private person. Keeping feelings to myself. Not that I don't have any, just quiet about them. I am now going out on a limb, and opening up myself.

I do want to take a minute and tell everyone "Thank You". We've gotten flowers, cards, emails and phone calls from so many people showing support and offering help.

It was a month ago today when we went to the Dr. for the first prenatal visit, had a sonogram, and found out how far along we were. It was a week ago today that we found out we lost the one thing we had been hoping and praying for for so long. It was the happiest month we recall ever having. Filled with hope, excitement, and a very little nervousness. I would have begun the 18 weeks tomorrow. The baby was too little to know whether it was a boy or girl. That would qualify as an angel, wouldn't it?

I am comforted knowing that our little angel is in heaven, in Jesus' arms. I do have to say that I know that He has bigger plans, and must have had a very good reason for this to have happened when it did.

We can only hope that after waiting for so long, this is God's way of telling us to be prepared, He is starting our family.